Wow, you're going to 3rd year! cool!!!! i'm going to 2nd year this april 6
:(, i wish i was 3rd yr. But eventhough you're going 3rd year and i'm going 2nd year, were gonna graduate on the same time... i think. Coz next year you're 4th yr, and i'm 3rd yr. (we only have upto 3rd year here.)
Wow! SILVER MEDAL!!!! that's great! CONGRATULATIONS :D, i'm so happy for ya! You have been off for a long time, but it's good you posted :)
>>About your problem, yeah, i understand you and of course i know how you feel, cozi also felt that emptiness inside, but don't worry my friend coz, i'm here for ya :) you're not alone. They say it's a part of being a teen ager, or being a fourteen yr, old. There's this stage where you feel lonely, but i know you're gonna get over it! 'Ikaw pa!'
*Oh, and the about 'i think this is not me'--> i also thought about that...
There has been a time where i thought of giving up, and just stay lonely, in the darkness... coz, no one really cares, no one's here to listen no one. I saw this webbie, called PHQ- Personal Halfquake. It's a sadistic guild :K i was so lonely at that time... i joined that site. There's a personal journal thingy there. I wrote stuff... blah blah, blah, my feelings, and everything. I wrote it all, and thought that no one would care if i write what i feel... well i was wrong. Some people commented, and it made me feel good. I started to get over my loneliness, i felt that the emptiness has gone.
That's why i feel good... now, sometimes i hear things that are not so good, that are about me, sometimes, they judge me, sometimes, they backstab me, but i just ignored them, and continued my life, coz i have one, i have a dream that i wanna reach... and of course you too.*
>>.............. ehem.... did i just....said that? *reads again*
i thinks it's pretty dark....anyways, CHEER UP!
i don't know what's making you lonely and empty if it's love, life, people, or you're just lonely, but i hope that you'll cheer up.
Oh, and about the shutting yourself from everyone, and you're a bit silent to your family, about your feelings, that's not really healthy, so. Maybe you can share your feelings to someone, close to you, umm....me? *hehehe*, because it's heavy to carry your burden all by yourself :(... and the shutting yourself... i think you're saying is that, you're afraid of trusting people, well it's ok. But maybe you can be open, but be cautious? or... guarded... what's that word...but, you can stay on guard... i think.
>>I dunno if these, things helped you. but i hope it does :D even a bit.
Oh, and there's one more thing, you should never forget :D
SMILE :)
xxXWhiteRoseXxx
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